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Thursday, July 23, 2015

Incarnated angels – are you one? Traits and challenges of angels on earth

   Personal experience
The first reason I could not deny the existence of incarnated angels any longer, was the discovery of my own origins. For years I had had signs, but I never dared take them seriously. At one time, angels even came to me, held my arms in a specific way (I had felt angels greet me this way before) and said ‘welcome, sister’ — but I didn’t dare tell my then supervisor. Whatever would she think? One reason people might suppress this kind of experience is the way angels have often been portrayed in the media, by religion, and the image we still have of them: for instance as holy, pure, and elevated above ordinary people and their earthly motivations. Behind this there is often a hidden tendency to judge the earthly plane and human things as personal love and sexuality, anger and strife, the bodily functions etc. as ‘lower’ in nature or even ‘bad’. So, it was very enlightening to find that my own incarnation process as an angel had begun with a very prosaic motive: my indignation at what I saw as injustice on the physical plane and the desire to do something about it! Unfortunately, as an angel I had not yet grasped the idea that the dark has its place and function in duality, which led to many lives in which battle took center stage. Lives as a warrior, crusader, leader of armies…. That may not sound very angelic. But these lives were inspired by a deep love for the earth and all living beings. Furthermore, healing the karmic wounds that stemmed from these lives has played a big part in my spiritual growth and attaining self-mastery. In this process my twin flame angel, because apparently, angels are created in pairs too, often chose the more ‘yin’ path of the healer. When incarnated, angels, just like humans, are subject to Duality and are confronted with the same issues like life and death, loss and mourning, fear and love, strife and guilt, etc. Incarnated angels are no different or better than humans in that — but they have followed a different route of evolution and therefore have different characteristics and are confronted with specific recurrent themes that can be useful to have knowledge of if you want to understand them better. This brings me to the characteristics of human angels I encounter regularly. Do you have many of these? Then you too may be an incarnated angel …

Unity Consciousness
Incarnated angels are often still very much attuned to Unity consciousness. After all, as angels they have often lived and worked in close proximity to Source for a long time before they embarked upon the journey into physical existence. Because of this, under the surface they still have a an all-encompassing sense of oneness with, and love and compassion for all living things. Even in situations of strife, they will quickly want to understand and honor the standpoint of all involved. However, doing so they sometimes lose their own centre. One disadvantage of the strong connection to Unity consciousness in a human body can be that incarnated angels often don’t have well-developed boundaries. They are able to connect so easily to everything and everyone around them, that they can have trouble assessing where they stop and the other begins. They can sense the emotions of others and energies around them so well, that they can become confused about what belongs to them, and what doesn’t. In this, they have a lot in common with HSP’s (Highly Sensitive Persons). I don’t believe every HSP is an incarnated angel, but I think it is safe to assume that every incarnated angel is highly sensitive!

‘Guardian angel-syndrome’
Along with being extremely sensitive, incarnated angels often have a great desire to ‘help’. One person dubbed this her ‘Guardian Angel syndrome’. This syndrome often has two sides to it. On the one hand, there is a great and authentic desire to be of service to all living beings and to want to see them happy. Incarnated angels often end up in occupations that are in some way related to giving care. On the other hand, there is often a compulsive need to help, stemming from the inability to tolerate the pain and discomfort of others. Incarnated angels often have a hard time differentiating between the pain of others and their own feelings. Thus, wanting to make the pain of others to go away can be a means to regain their own inner peace! Furthermore, they often have an exaggerated sense of responsibility and can feel guilty if they do not ‘help’ everyone that is in need all the time. As if, because they can sense everything, they are responsible for everything. Moreover, they do not always see that pain has a function: for instance, emotional pain can be a signal for someone to start making better choices for themselves. To take away the pain of another would be to rob the other of their free choice and a chance to grow.

Light in the darkness
Angels often choose to incarnate in families where there is a lot of darkness: homes where there is alcohol and drug abuse, depression, physical and mental abuse, etc. They want to bring light, joy or love to places where negativity reigns. From the overview of the in-between state it can seem like a good idea to bring light to a family where there is low level of consciousness and a lot of darkness, but when an angel incarnates into it for real and becomes a baby dependent on the family for survival, it becomes a different story. As children they can feel desperately lonely, and helping others may become a means to relieve their loneliness and experience a form of contact, or even ‘earn’ a sense of worthiness. This however is at the cost of their own energy and joy and will later lead to problems with dependency relationships, depression, burn-out, etc. In those cases, incarnated angels can have a lot to gain from therapies like inner child work and past life regression therapy. To reconnect with their angelic Source and Self, and to understand and heal the dependency issues and the child within will re-empower them and help them be able to shine in the world without dependency on results or how others react to them.

Compassion and strictness
Where incarnated angels can muster enormous compassion for others, they can be very hard on themselves. It seems like they apply unrealistically high moral standard to themselves. They seem to forget that as humans, they may learn by making mistakes and are worthy of just as much compassion as the people they so love to help! Incarnated angels can benefit greatly from seeing themselves through the eyes of their own guardian angel — and see someone who is trying their best, deserves to be acknowledged and honored purely for the courage to incarnate and is always deserving of unconditional love.

Beauty and ‘harsh’ reality
Incarnated angels are often very sensitive to authentic beauty, nature, art and music. Everything that has been created as an expression of high frequency or divine Source energy reconnects them with Home. Angels that are out of balance and have not yet healed the issues their human incarnations have left them with, often have difficulties dealing with the dark side of duality and the ‘harsh’ aspects of the world and can sometimes use art as a means to escape. They can try to disappear into their imagination, in books or movies, or of course in actual drug use. Healing their first incarnation(s) as a human being and embracing their inner child can help them find their balance. Sometimes using some form of art can help them heal as well. To create beauty and bring it into the world themselves instead of using it to escape it, can be tremendously healing for them and help them re-empower themselves.

Blind spot for ‘evil’
Because incarnated angels are still so closely connected to Unity consciousness and the truth of Creator they often have a blind spot for what we could call ‘evil’. When beings have closed off their connection to Source and are seriously out of balance, they exist in lower frequencies which manifest as fear and hatred, and are driven by jealousy, rage, fear and contempt, especially for those who still live in the Light. Because incarnated angels are so close to Unity, but have not yet become conscious in all aspects of their being, it seems they have often trouble perceiving this kind of motivation and the behaviors stemming from it. They don’t know evil, and therefore they don’t see it! So, incarnated angels can feel helpless in situations in which they are confronted with manipulation, deceit, ruthless competition etc. For instance: as a toddler of four I was in the playground when I saw one girl bullying another. It is one of my first conscious memories. I was dumbfounded and though to myself: ‘How can this be? Don’t they know that when you hurt someone, you’re only hurting yourself?’

The dark path
This brings me to a realization that surprised me even more than the existence of incarnated angels. The existence of ‘fallen’ angels. Just like humans, angels too can turn away from the Light out of pain and anger, and choose to follow the ‘dark’ path. This too, is an experience they ultimately learn and grow from, and from the higher dimensions there is no judgment about this. But when as an angel in human form, you are confronted with a ‘fallen’ angels it can be a shocking experience that can take some healing and energetic cleansing and disconnecting. In their behaviour, they are a lot like‘demonic’ entities (spirits of the dark side that have their own purpose and function in duality). They are usually motivated by jealousy, long for power over others and are extremely manipulative, deceitful, arrogant and ruthless. They can incarnate as humans but also be present in non-corporeal form. Fortunately we don’t have to go around in fear of ‘dark’ angels, for the same reason we don’t have to be afraid of other dark entities that feed off fear and negativity. They can only really bother people who are somehow susceptible to their energy, and that opening can be healed. When the point of attraction to negative beings is healed, they cannot find a way in.

Friday, May 29, 2015

救我

我真的好難受也不知怎麼發洩了…
我開始越來越沉了,我也不想的…
也沒有自己的自由

為什麼事情要變得越來越遠糟糕?越複雜?越混亂?以前平靜開朗快樂的生活呢?

為什麼生活要那麼痛苦?我真的很不想再看再接觸這世界的複雜…太亂了,好迷失…

能給我去一個美麗的山頂嗎??有大叔,新鮮的風…小鳥的叫聲,美麗的天空

我…真的盡力了…為什麼?到底為什麼做好,不是每個人會欣賞你的,為什麼人類的心要這樣臭?

雖然他們這樣,我以為我總有一天也會變成這樣…其實這是自己的選擇…很多人被傷害過後,都把最好的自己放棄了…

“好”真的有那麼難做嗎?“惡”做了真的會開心嗎?

天使與惡魔到底誰會輸了給誰,誰又會贏了給誰呢??會有答案嗎??

人心真的有那麼狠嗎??夢幻美好甜美一點不是更好嗎?

我不懂為什麼自己突然變得“無所謂”了。
看太清了嗎?還是都懂得太多了…
爭吵好累,我不想把不好印象留在別人的記憶裡…要留也留好的…只要他人明白就好。

我真的不是故意要發脾氣的…
只有自己最懂自己,忍受了多少?改變了多少?其實我真的很多疑問我想要快點解決問題還人一個清白…

最可憐最同情最委屈的就是傷害無辜了,有些無辜太過善良被傷害了也不會生氣只會傷心…那些都是小天使!!

我不懂為什麼…時間久了…我…
我…
我曾經看重很保護很愛護的東西都不會特意去做了…或許世界的東西和科技都變方便了…所以東西越來越多我們都忘了怎麼去珍惜一個東西或人。

這世界真的是沒有答案嗎??
等著瞧吧你給我什麼我就還你什麼,除了垃圾我是不收的…

反正不忍都忍到了今天…

Monday, May 4, 2015

Dead

Goodnight

Drown2

當我想對自己發洩的時候我發現我的疤痕已經滿了,我自己都忘了…該換什麼地方的時候?

Drown 1

Exactly... nobody knows!! I have no freedom I'm so stressed I'm so lonely I'm so suffer....
When I have chances to go outside I really feel very happy and enjoy with my friends...
No one will feel what I facing now, I'm a cheerful active person I can't be locked when I feel bored and no one beside me, I feel very blank and I cry so hard everynight..我體諒你們但是誰來體諒我的感受?我只能承受…多希望有個人知道我不說話的時候可以懂得我感受讓我抱著大哭維護著我[心碎]救我。。。。。。沒關係明早我就會沒事了 :') 晚安了黑暗世界

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

我要的男人

原來我一直以來想要的男人,是一個比我強又聰明會做事的人,也能保護我,我要的是厲害人。 而不是娘娘,跟娘娘在一起雖然他們開心不過我並沒有開心…因為只有我在照顧他們一樣,我得到什麼?好像在照顧弟弟一樣…
我現在遇到的,真的是我想要的人。
在我生氣時候會有辦法逗我開心而不是在那邊做臉給我看只會告訴我“不要這樣好嗎?不要生氣啦”我覺得好無聊…
在我傷心的時候,會很大男人一樣借我肩膀哭,心疼我好好安慰我,而不是我傷心你也做一個傷心臉給我看。
我要的是可以依靠的…我喜歡大男人不是娘娘。 我很多情緒的所以也要找一個跟我一樣情緒的人才能管的聊我。

Monday, February 16, 2015

自己太天真了。

從頭到尾是自己在害自己,能怨誰?
我現在才知道為什麼媽媽這樣照顧我這樣擔心我這樣管我…原來媽媽最了解我了…
我就是太天真太容易相信人媽媽才會怕我受傷。。。對不起媽媽。。我對你太沒禮貌了…
從今…我一定要好好對你。

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

冤枉

做人做得太好只會被冤枉,因為人類只會想這世界上怎麼會有那麼“好的人” 就是這樣的懷疑才會害死人!! 她們就太不敢相信你真的那麼好才被無辜的人受傷害。 受害者就是一個不會心狠手段來對你的人卻被你先插一刀,因為你害怕。 所以保護到自己卻不懂傷害到別人,你可以先贏了面子但是恐怕失去的也會更多。
我了解以前誅仙對你們很暴力,你們都受過了那種痛難道你們要來報仇“無辜的我們嗎?”為何!!傷你們的是你們的誅仙,你們忍了這個氣來報復我們。為何??! 我現在就很有膽量的說我神鬼不怕!我最恨的是無情的人!!這樣做不好的東西這樣來捏帶人你心裡會舒服點嗎??來我現在是你們人類的試驗品有種來搞我!我奉陪到底! :)

11/2/2015

痛什麼是痛?我也很想再痛但是我已經沒有知覺了…
世界上最脆弱最容易受傷的還是一顆“心” 沒了信任要怎麼跟你溝通?和你解釋再多你不相信也沒辦法…我不能做什麼何必要把我看到那麼賤?我是你女兒啊!!我真的很愛你!為什麼你要說那麼恨的話來傷害我!!

Sunday, January 25, 2015

我已經不再是以前的自己了

以前的自信都沒了…
所有的能量沒得散發也沒機會show出來…
老天爺…我只有三個夢想就是當歌手,放舞者最後就是加入黑幫…你到底要我放什麼人丫?我好傷心…痛到無法想像…我累了…我好痛…誰能來救救我

Thursday, January 22, 2015

我好愛我的傻老公 ♡

我老公終於回來了!還好他告訴我一切不算欺騙吧?(^_^) 我以為真的會出事…結果他還是愛我的嘻嘻!還非常疼我呢!愛死你了!!

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

我最心愛的你在哪裡?

老公你在哪裡?
我真很想你!你有想我嗎?
我第一次那麼愛過一個男生,那麼認真的
求你好不好有什麼事我可以和你一起分擔的…
上天把我送給你就是來幫你的,我不忍心看你這樣幸苦!我要和你一起努力打拼這世界!!謝章強!你有聽到嗎??!
不要那麼自私聽話…一個人是不能的!別騙自己了好嗎??在我身邊你可以表現所有表情…我會安穩你情緒的 … 你就不能夠真正的在我身邊脆弱一次嗎?別再裝了你這樣很幸苦的…咳

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

我是誰

我到底是誰?
Who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am I who am i

邪惡

你們不會喜歡邪惡的我的。。
你們不會喜歡邪惡的我的。。。。
你們不會喜歡邪惡的我的。。。。。
你不會想知道我的故事的…
如果你知道了我怕你會承受不了