As poison as a TOXIC

           Boys?Love?Bullshit...no such a perfect things in the world..even honesty also not exists the truth..

                  I swear to myself..i want to be perfect..life good...and put toxic on the boys :) what they did to me?i will did to you back... what you all teach me? when i'm not perfect..i life good,my family feed me good...i become fat..cause i'm good in my life...

                But some people is too obvious they laugh at me,judge me,bullies me...treat me like a person without feeling..that time..when i was small,i lose happiness in my life..

               Now i want to get back my happiness...even it hurt other people..i also don't care..important is..i need happiness...
             
               I choose to life...and not death...is because i want to enjoy~ you all say commit suicide choose to die is stupid?Well :) you're right...so i choose to life...is a clever things..to hurt more people in the world like how they hurt me :)

              The time i really very hurt..but...did anybody knows my feeling? No..NO ONE!! I'm so lonely,so alone...i keep all this things alone...i'm too lonely....

             Now..i think very probably..i just want to enjoy around the world..enjoy as happy as i can...i want to be rich..i want everything to be awesome perfect...i want my family rich too...no need to suffer anymore..so that i need to earn more..

            And i learn something...sometimes...your things your secret...can't be told to anyone all..keep some for yourself..if you tell all to people.."you'll left nothing to yourself" cause human is selfish...they just think of themselves.